"sigh"

I am so bored.
and dissatisfied, and frustrated with everyone pretty much! I'm loosing my bestfriend to her stupid marriage because she doesn't know how to stand up for our friendship or HERSELF! Him, always trying to make me jealous and I'm fucking sick of it. I hate Hawaii so so so so much. MY friends are all growing distant and I'm feeling even more alone than i had before. I'm starting to develop a problem with spending money because its like something I control and am in charge of . I need a job i really do...no i dont need anything I'm completely content. No I'm not. I'm tired of being so tough, why cant someone just condole me. My life is just going to keep being disappointed unless i do something bout it but no one else wants to make an effort either like hanging out with old friends. You cant just tell them you want to hang out they have to show up or call or text so you can hang out. Grrrrr I hate this chapter in my life right now