Faith and distrust

I finally give in only to immediately regret my foolish decision. You will never lust only me, your mind will always be millions of miles away secretly planning your next love affair. I don't understand it, unless its just of your nature for which I fear most, it is. I am everything you want and need, I make you more than happy. You chase me the second I become unavailable to you but as soon as I give in and give it my all, I loose your full attention. The only way to keep you obsessing over me is to keep my distance. So I'll keep ignoring your calls here and there, and I'll call you when you can hear my guy friends in the background. You know that others covet what you have, maybe they would be more grateful to have me in their possession. Maybe I should ignore it and play your game. Its a simple decision, I either let myself become attached...or I don't.